Negativity

Everyday something else can change…feel the wind beneath you…everything can stop…the whole world just waits… I can hear it calling… feeling it within myself …wanting to leave and just scream it out loud… but I can’t my voice doesn’t come… just go and start to try… because I can’t continue worrying… can’t let you bring me down again and again… I’m not strong … who am I kidding? I am not perfect, I’m not strong…but one thing is I am not a screw up, or worthless or useless… but I guess in your eyes I’ll never be good enough for no one… it hurts me deep inside …it cuts me deeply hearing you say it.. But what can I do? I can just stand there and take each and every blow you throw at me… but I won’t give up and I know I may break down but I have to attempt to move on… I have feelings too… can’t you see the sadness in my eyes? I guess you can’t because negativity is all that I hear coming from your mouth. But I won’t give up…even though I know it will go wrong… I may breakdown but I’ll fight back the tears...