FAKE FRIENDS

You know something that I really hate is when people talk about you and say things about you when they don't even understand or know what the hell your going through...what things you are doing in order to keep going or move on...it really angered me because I mean when you confide in someone you would expect them to keep it quiet and not go and blab it to others who have no right to know what is going...they have no right to talk about the things I confide in them...are those truly friends? The ones who you trust with and then you find out that they have been talking about you behind your back...saying things that are not even true...you find out that you have been in almost half of everyone conversations...and it really hurts...it felt like a sharp knife...it truly hurt me when I found this out because they don't understand what I'm going through...it's been very hard and I have struggled to keep going and to keep my head up...but when I found out the things they said...about me...about my family...it was like they hit a nerve...a sharp excruciating pain...a shot of pain going through my body...my muscles tensing up and my fists clenching together...so much rage and anger building up inside it feels like a sickening ride...everything spinning...you feel dizzy...you want it to stop spinning but it keeps spinning non stop...what can you do when you find out your "friends" didn't turn out to be REAL friends...?? Can someone explain this to me?