Stone Tears

Tears we cry for those we love, for those who hurt us, for those who hate us...they can feel like stone tears. I know the tears I've cried and cry are stone tears. They feel cold and heavy as they stream down my face. Heavy as stones...trying to push myself through the crowd...keep them from hiding myself behind my hair looking down to the ground another day. Maybe today I'll push through the crowd....I need sometime to get away and get these stone tears out...cry them all not but it seems that these stone tears never end...maybe this time I won't stop and I'll find my way...away....take me away...

The Truth Of What You Have Become

Somebody hold me....suddenly I'm feeling cold and sad. You've said we are both the same...I believe you are wrong for I could never do the things you've done to me....but I will be strong...
I'll fight back...with time you will eventually fade in the background right? Into the nothing you have become and are. The mistakes and the choices you have made will hunt you down you'll see...they will catch up to you and you will fall straight to the ground....you will remember me and the things you have done...your weakness will break you and do you in....hitting rock bottom...but I'm not worried for I know the truth....yes the truth I hold...the truth of it all...it is on my side and seem like you have hit the ground and that is not my fault.

BAd Day

I've had a bad day...it seemed like forever...nothing seemed to go the way I wished it did. I've got a killer headache don't want to think about it. Every time I want to smile I seem to start crying so instead I just hide my face behind my dark brown curls. I've had a bad day don't want to talk about it nor think about it. But I'll be fine..just got to hang on right? Nothing will stop me...I'm strong...I'm the only one who can stand up and make a change right ? I really don't want to fight anymore. I want to live my life...make it through alright....I hope.. I just want to shout about it but when I turn around I find out that I'm alone again. I had a bad day...but I guess I could laugh about it right? When I get lonely...I feel light like when your floating in water...nothing seems real....but I should be above it right? I can only make the change...I'm strong....I'll keep going and holding on...no one... no no one will stop me from getting there....for I am strong and nothing will hold me back.

Cobwebs

There's always a chance that I won't repeat lessons I have learned...of course I might make some same mistakes...I can't pretend I'm perfect cause I'm not. No need to point it out more...yes I've fallen because of you...broken my legs so now I'm just standing motionless...when these pains ease down I'll quit holding on...I'll just run right on...part of me is scared to death and face the truth...can you see I'm broken wide open? I can barely breath...survival...keeps me hanging on...afraid of letting go...afraid of being alone..afraid of giving up...afraid..yet still hanging onto the threads.

A dream that was real

I drifted off to sleep at about 3:30 last night with the notebook and pen still in my hand. I drifted in and out of sleep dreaming of a better place at first. Had dream but it was all foggy in my head...better days...love of all mankind..spoke with people can't remember what they said though. We can be powerless sometimes yet we still live our lives ever day. I drifted deeper into sleep...heard gunshots....I heard some one say " so young and yet so full of life"...had a dream it was all foggy thoughts though...gunshots....I woke up with tears in my eyes.

Endless Line

My time is still going...You've been through a lot....can you hear me calling? This line is point straight at you. It's your own actions and your own decisions. I'm living my life straight unlike you. You can call that on me and I'll guard myself just wait and see. You will see because I have started brand new unlike you it is still a sickening game to you...but I'm living my life straight...you've got your mind made up it seems it doesn't change...I think about when this world ...When I have seen its better days.

I Cannot

I'd be lying if I said I felt nothing. I could be proving you right with my silence. Am I letting you win without my reaction? How can I explain? I can't...I cannot be confused or mislead one more time. Would I be whining if I said I needed a hug? How can I complain? I cannot complain. I cannot help but wonder why you do this...you think your the right one...the charmed one...how can you live w such conviction? And who do you think you are? To question things you have no right to? To question me? Why do you affect me? Why do you affect me still? Why do you hinder me? Why do you make my blood boil? Why do trigger my anger?? Why do you bother?