It wasn't enough

It wasn't enough to just saying it... it wasn't enough to feel it..nor pay the bitterness with my own life...It wasn't enough to abandon my dreams and leave them behind... selling you soul just so you could live on with your own life...No it wasn't enough just live..betraying the silence for you and even so you leave and I'm left talking to myself...Today I just can't lie to myself anymore and I understand that you try to make me not be happy..As if I'm not meant to feel happiness..you have ripped me of my happiness...Every single time they look into my eyes.. all they ever look for was to see their own reflection and not the person behind those eyes... Nothing ever mattered... feeling nothing and everything... no it wasn't enough... you've left... and I can't lie to myself no more... guess it is time that takes you.. no it wasn't enough to live... here I am talking to myself. Never were happy with me..I don't understand why? All I ever did was try and try but no, I guess it just wasn't enough for them...