Live before we die

I guess we all want to live before we all die of course...like truly live...please i don't want to cry on another cold floor...I don't want to cry myself to sleep once more...could someone open the door and show me how things could have gone. Seems like its taking a long time for them to figure things out...I'm about to break and there were no arms from keeping me from harming me, from protecting me...and now I'm looking...I'm searching back to see now I never ever tried asking for your sympathy, because no one wants to walk with me too far...because they think I might trip along the way...but yet I walk this unknown road...even if I have to walk it alone...it maybe just might turn into something better....