so misleading

hating every moment that has to do with you...why do we have to go through this again...i feel like I'm going to throw up...i feel cold and lost and hurt...everything is so confusing...i don't know what to do anymore...I can't believe that you are going to get away with it once again...i can't believe you have cause so much pain to the point where not even she could handle it...I HATE YOU...i know maybe by saying this maybe i might sound like the bad guy but I'm not I'm just expressing how i feel and that is how i feel...i truly do HATE YOU...so much pain you have caused...but yet i cant believe you sort of got away with something you caused pain...you were able to cause pain and that is what angers me the most....i hate seeing her cry...seeing the pain in her eyes...gosh why did u have to be so cruel and then put on your stupid innocent face..i feel like screaming at you...i feel like hitting something..i try to talk but i don't know what to say anymore...i cant believe you...i don't know what happened to...why was it so hard for you to show any respect?!....huh? why? I thought it would all get better since you left but as i see it has only gotten worse and worse....why....? i can't even write anymore...feel sick...