another day

here i sit another day...another hour gone by....I don't know what to do anymore...i just sit here and think to myself...what now? you managed to get away with something that wasn't right...im looking through this clear looking glass and I want to just go through it...into another world into a happy day...away from the wreckage you have made...I keep dreaming of this because I know I still can...but it seems everytime i close my eyes i seem to still trip...wanting to be free... wanting to go to a place i know...a place i can see those who still care for me...since they both live a little far I miss them dearly I really do...I wish I could get on a plane and just leave go over there and stay there...I feel as if I'm slipping out of my life...but it seems my hand won't go to this other side...my fingers seem to be locked together...not wanting to let go...the glass feels cold...i can taste the tears...cold and salty....but i just try to lose my eyes and drift off into sleep and dream of this place where i can call home seeing their warm smiling faces once again...feeling the warm embrace of a hug...but when I try to go to sleep and dream...but my eyes they don't close...closing the curtains and left in darkness...will someone tell me it will be Ok?....come and warm my spirit for it has gone cold...and help me wait for another day....