Breathing Nite Air

At night I can't breath as easy as I did before. No one even notices or listens to the change in my breathing or words...or when I spoke spilling my thoughts and feelings...I guess I'm getting to the point where I feel like I do even more then I used to...like drowning or choking. Barely breathing. Wondering if anyone is listening...slowly fading away. Feel like I do because I just do...what else can I say...I just do. I'm going to try to make it through. Feelings in the past that I used to feel are now long gone...but know new feelings have taken their place...different feelings. I still don't breath easy at night...I hardly sleep anymore...but I just feel this way...I just do.