I've Lost My Innocence

I'm done yes I have said I'm DONE with all of this...I've exposed my weakness inside me with the daylight it bright enough to kill this dream of mine. I'm losing my innocence. I can't really expect to live like this forever? We can't right? What can I say or what should I say or even better how can I explain this pain? It weighs somewhat heavy on the brains of those who I love..those who keep the faith...when I know there's just only one way. I can't live like this forever. No I won't..we weren't made to live like this no we NEVER were...I try to come as close as I can and try to make it work but instead I turn around and walk back towards the darkness I have been hiding in cause you just yell and bicker about the stupidest things. One thing that I know is that we were never meant nor made to live like this.