I'm tired of feeling this same old feeling.....speaking words in every kind of way to try to get my point across...sometimes I want to just close my eyes together...looking for a escape...maybe find that secret garden everyone reads about...maybe the only sign is in front of us....behind the shadows...sometimes I go to sleep dreaming of tomorrow.....of the place when everything will be fine. Wanting to just dive into the pool I don't care if the water's cold...I go to sleep and wake up sick...i walk through the crowds...look through the window into the unknown...wanting to ditch everything...you really thought I'd be the only one who would be ditched?? Really?? I just want to let go....forget it...I really miss the ones I love....I miss how we used to be...its like a movie where everyone is sad....wanting to just sleepwalk into the dream...i want to learn to open my eyes and see...but then you want to just turn off the lights and lay in the darkness...a couple tears down my face...could it just rain so no one can see my tears? ...what's beyond the darkness??...gotta learn to blend into this mess ....keep letting it all go all of the crap...seems I'm lost in this place...where am I?? ...