Bring The Rain

Today took a road..an unwinding road taking me to new places..some places I wish I didn't have to go. In the blink of an eye everything changed before me changed just like that. Why hold on to some of these things? Can someone explain why?...I try to forget...try to read between the lines see beyond its meaning and find out what is real. I try to look inside and see what I'm feeling inside... maybe I can find a way out? Not feel so down and alone... A door that has been unopened and will lead me the right way... away from all the pain...find a way out..It rains it thunders it looks so gray when I go through it all. Every day seems to be a shade of gray. Could I just find out where to start..is there something that everyone knows that I don't know? Today I went on my own...felt like I couldn't move a muscle not knowing...stepping outside...just to breathe...find a way out...maybe this is the way. My eyes are slowly getting the brightness in them. Bring the rain now..I'm slowly wrapped up in everything...i know I can make it out I have the strength too. I just need to give it a little time right? I want to let them know I can...I want to let myself know I can...i can hear the thunder and the rain wanting to come back.