Missing you

I wish this could be a happy poem but right now my happiness has disappeared the moment I got a phone call saying you had passed away...when I found out that you were gone. I don't think I ever truly believe that something like this would happen...I knew the day could come but I believed that you would get better...I never believed that that day would come so soon. Now all I'm feeling is sadness, lost, and numbness. I know I promised you if anything did happen to keep going on and try not to be too sad. But it's hard because we are all truly missing you. I'm very thankful for the good times we spent together. This is a lesson for all of us to be thankful for everyday we have because today we are here and tomorrow we could be gone. But yet I feel sad because I lost such a great friend...all of our wonderful memories right now are making me fall apart because I'm going to miss the things we always did. It feels like someone ripped the ground from under me. I know I promised that I wouldn't be sad and cry but yet I find myself crying...it's really hard because I miss you and its killing me inside....remembering when we would go camping, fishing, play a round of cribbage, the occasional BBQ...but my happiness disappeared when I heard the news...please someone tell me that I'm dreaming... tell me this isn't real...that it is not happening...please tell me it isn't as it seems...please can I just wake up and realize it was just a bad dream..that it is fiction...a lie...please say he didn't really die...no please this can't be happening...I miss you...wish I could heart your voice...your heartful laugh once more...or one of your many jokes...or one more day of fishing for hours....I loved you like a father...you were a great friend...I miss you.

In Loving Memory Of
Bruce Kunze